Ever have to go somewhere and you did not want to go for fear of running into someone? You thought or knew they would be there, and the last thing you wanted to do was see them? Even though you wanted to go to the place?
I want to go to hell. Can’t go to heaven, don’t know what the choices really are, but I don’t want to go to heaven.
You see, although I am a heathen, and I occasionally curse the holy one, blessed be He, and sometimes I am religious and god fearing, well, I can be spiritual. It is true, there are no atheists in a foxhole.
I honestly believe that Pearlsky will be able to speak in heaven. I really do, actually. And walk. (Do people / spirits “walk” in heaven?) I have known that for all these years.
And I am absolutely petrified to hear what she has to say to me.
Yes, I know, I’m a good father, blah blah blah.
I am scared shitless to hear what she will say. I really am. Just the concept makes me ill.